Things that I wish I could say out loud.

These are little things that I've mulled over in my brain, some for many years. The letter stands for one of each person's initial. They shall all remain that way, because I want to keep each person they are written to a secret. Some people who know that will come to read may think they know who some of the people are. But trust me when I say, no you don't. These are the things that I will keep quiet about because I will never be able to say them to the person's face, for one reason or another...

T.
Do you not trust me? I have told you so much over the years we've known one another. I've discussed with you so many things that I would rather stay secret. You have a secret that you're keeping from me. You don't know that I know yet. I'm waiting to see if you ever tell me. I'm waiting to see why you're hiding it from me. Until then I won't trust you with anything else at all.


P.
You talk too much. Waaaay too much. Do you always steal things from other people? Why are you so afraid to show the real you to the world? 


C.
I hate you. I hate you so much. I stand to hear your voice, or be near enough for you to touch me. You make my skin crawl and I wish that I could get away with never seeing you, ever again.

M.
I hope you know what you're doing. Don't fall, and be careful.


J.
I’m sorry that I was so prejudice against you. This is the only one that I’ve actually tried to say, but I know if I try to say it again you would shut me down and tell me to forget about it again. You’re a really awesome person and I’m sorry that it took me so long to see it.

D.
I love you. And I know that you love me too. We never say that to each other do we? I am so thankful to have had you in my life. There is something that I want to confess... You're my favourite.

M.
I really don't know how I feel about you. Sometimes I hate you with a passion, and I never want to see you again. Sometimes I don't. I think this shall pass, with time.

S.
Don’t you dare hurt her.


D.
I remember the first time I saw you. I remember the first time we spoke to one another. I remember the first time that we smiled and laughed together. I remember the first time we realised we had a lot in common. But I don't remember why you didn't want to stay. 

C.
You've betrayed me, and you don't even know it. 

L.
Go take a shower you filthy idiot. You smell like a rotting foot! An odour that is most unpleasant, especially when it lingers long after you've gone!


M.
It really hurt when you left you know? There was a time when I thought we might be in each other's lives forever. But I can see how shallow and naive you really are. You always have been, it just took a while for me to realise it. And now, even though I think you're a good person, I'm quite glad that we have grown apart. 

E.
I don't quite know what to make of you. I don't even know you, but I do know that I could never ever trust you. I do suspect that you're fucked up on the inside. Not in the crazy way, in the bad way. I guess, if I ever got the chance to meet you and to talk to you I would ask you what you would have done. Or at least, I would want to, but the fear of knowing the truth would keep me quiet. 


J.
I will always have nightmares about you. You were one of the people that messed me up beyond fixing. Sometimes I wish that we had never met. For years I have wished that we had never met, because my life you have been so much happier that way.


D.

What the fuck do you think you are playing at, acting the way that you are? You're a fully grown adult, and much older than I am, yet you have been acting like a spoilt child that can't get their own way! Grow the fuck up because you're hurting everyone around you! You're losing us. Stop running away.


K.

If I ever got the chance, I would gladly cave in your skull with a hammer.

S.
It has been so great watching you grow into such an amazing person. Even though we don't see one another often, you will always be one of my closest friends. I am so glad that we've been talking more regularly again recently. I have really missed you. 

L.
I loved you once, I love you still. But you will never know. 

I think odd things

If sex was merely a way to reproduce and not a recreational activity, how people that we all know today wouldn't exist? Furthermore, what inventions would we be without because their creators weren't around to discover them?