I have been having quite a mental struggle recently. The details as to why are my own, but it isn't something that I can prevent. I can't stop thinking as negatively as I have been doing and I am finding it difficult to carry on. There are 5 things that I tell myself in my head every morning in order to pick myself up and get myself moving again.
1. You're not unlovable.
You may believe with every atom of your being that you are unlovable, entirely unworthy of loving but you aren't. There are people who love you. And by hurting yourself, by taking your life, they will be hurting too. You are not selfish enough to do that; because you love them too. And you won't hurt them.
2. Change is inevitable.
Change is an inevitable constant throughout life. There is nothing that you can do, you are entirely helpless against it. It can be good, bad, or indifferent. All you can do is roll with the punches and adapt to the new reality. Life will reward you for pushing through the tough times. It always has, you know this.
3. Look at all of the things you haven't achieved yet.
You have so much potential. Think about all the things you have left to learn, to do, to see! You haven't seen nearly enough of the earth and there are so many people you have left to meet. Including some of your own making. You have so many experiences left, don't throw them away. You were meant to live on this earth and you were given the chance to explore every corner you can.
4. You are not the sum of your mistakes and it is okay to regret things.
You are not the sum of your mistakes. You are the sum of all of the actions and choices you make. Mistake or not. And that is okay. You can regret choices that you've made, you can regret not doing something before it was too late. It just means that if you could go back you would do things differently. But don't dwell on that. You need to keep looking forward, carry on learning as much as you can. Be the best you that you can possibly be.
5. Your insecurities are usually just your mind playing tricks, talk about them.
It's fine to have insecurities. Everybody has some. But don't allow them to rule your mind. If something is seriously bothering you, talk to the one you trust about them and figure it out. It will make you feel better for it in the end. You know that your mind gets snarled up in the darkest of thoughts and you struggle to find the light. But that doesn't mean that there is no way out.
I've written this down because sometimes I find it difficult to remember these things. I have posted it on here, however, because if anybody ever reads this who is or has gone through the same thing and it saves them from themselves then it is worthwhile. You are strong. You are brave. You are a good person. And you are capable of so much more than you believe you are.
