*sigh*

I don't know what I expected...

Today I reached out to you. I reached out, because you needed someone to tell you they care. And I do, I care. And you have no idea just how much I care about you. I offered an ear to listen, a shoulder to cry on, a friendly word of reassurance.

I don't offer these things lightly. I haven't reached out to somebody else like this since high school. The time and place where I learned how cruel people can be. And you were one of the people who were cruel to me; yet still, I care!

Maybe I'm a glutton for punishment. Maybe I am eternally damned to be a complete idiot. Or maybe I am too kind for my good. But you know what the funniest thing is? I didn't do it just for you. I did it for me too. I need a shoulder like yours...

Maybe this is a sign that I should just stop trying altogether - close myself off from prying eyes. Every time I try something like this I end up getting hurt, and I generally do it to myself...

I think that it's time to give up on you ever caring for me like I do for you. You never have, and you never will. I don't know what it is that I did to make you hate me, and act like such a jerk to me. Whatever it was, I'm sorry. That's all I can say...

I don't know what I expected from you; but I hoped it wouldn't be ignorance.