Matter

All I feel is that I don't matter. Not to anybody, particularly the ones that I am supposed to matter the most to.

Constantly feeling like I'm being used for something, my mind, my time, my company, my body... it's excruciating.

All I want is for someone, anyone to look me in the eye and tell me that I do matter. I do, always have, and always will matter. And I want to believe them.

I want to believe that I'm worth it, because believing that I am not... It is killing me.