Exhausted

I am so tired. Physically, mentally, emotionally shattered.

My mind took me to a very very dark place the other night. To a depth that I hadn't reached before. I never want to go that far again. It was... Disturbing.

So much is in disarray at the moment. Most of the time I don't know whether I'm coming or going and I have to take each hour as it comes simply to survive right now.

I miss my dog, my safety blanket. Having him ripped away from me felt awful. And now every time I get him it doesn't feel right, like I can't make it the way I used to. This hurts like hell.

I think I need to cling to a new safety blanket.