Sometimes...

...I pause in everything that I'm doing. I just stop, dead. I do this, because I need to take a moment of inner silence and contemplation. Everything on the outside quickly becomes hazy, and I take little to none of it in. On the outside I probably appear to be deep within a daydream. On the inside, however, everything is swirling around. Memories, churning and throwing themselves at me.

In these moments I realise just how much has changed in the few months that have made up this year so far. I realise how much I have lost, but also how much I have gained. I notice how much, and what ways I have grown into myself.

I have to take a few moments by myself afterwards to regain control of my overwhelmed self. To regain my composure and come back from my inner world of memories and unachievable dreams.