Tuesday, 27 May 2014

Transitional

I know that I've spoken about going through a transitional period in my life right now.
My wardrobe is still adapting to the change. There are still things I am thinking of getting rid of. The list of new clothes that I need to buy is getting longer and longer with every passing week. I feel different on the inside. I'm more confident. In both myself and everything I do. I am improving open myself with every ounce of my being. Perhaps an effect of taking photos of myself? I would like to think so. I have some amazing people in my life that are so insanely supportive. I owe them all of my gratitude for being, well, themselves. They are the best people.
But all that aside, all of this change is a little disturbing. How far do I let it carry me? I want to cut and dye my hair. Get more tattoos. Move away. Travel. Meet new people. New cultures. New experiences. While a lot of these things are something I've always wanted to do, I haven't felt like I needed to do them right away. However, currently I have an overwhelming desire and absolute, all encompassing NEED to do everything. How far do I go?

Apart from that... I am happy. I don't remember the last time that I felt this genuine happiness. I remember feeling the giddy euphoria that goes with the mood swings of depression. But that isn't real. This, is real. And I love it!!

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