Who am I?

The truth is, I really don't know.

I always thought I knew who I was. But as it turns out, I don't. I'm lost, floating about untethered to anything. Is that any way to live? No, it really isn't. I need to find my identity. I need to find me. That is my newest task. I am so thankful to be able to say I have some truly amazing people who know what I'm going through who can help me along the way.

Looking back over the past few months of my life I realise now that instead of losing everything a couple of weeks ago, I've had nothing really left for a long time now. I can see now that I've been lost for a lot longer than I thought, I just didn't feel it before whereas now that's all I've really been feeling.  But that's the good thing about having nothing. Nothing can't be taken away from you. You can only go up, and things can only get better.

My main flaw, and an issue I really need to take care of, is that I am too nice for my own good. My heart is too kind, too gentle. And that means that people will take advantage of my kindness and I will end up getting even more hurt than I have been. That needs to stop. The first step in my quest is doing things for myself, not for other people. Sure, I'll still help someone if they need it. But now I come first, not them.

So, here starts my journey. To a, hopefully, much happier, confident, and better me. I have perspective, and mistakes to learn from.